On Wednesday (June 7, 2017), I got pulled over by the police. No, I wasn’t speeding or driving under the influence, but my vehicle was past the inspection date. So let’s get started.

I was driving through my little town and out into the countryside. Then I noticed that a police car was following me and had its lights flashing. I thought they probably just want to pass me. I pulled the car over, but they didn’t pass me. I looked in my rearview mirror and both policemen were exiting their vehicle. He told me what was wrong and asked for all my documents. I was completely clueless what my vehicle registration looked like and literally gave him a wad of papers. Luckily, one paper was the registration. He walked back to his car. I waited. And waited. And waited, it seemed like forever had passed. Then he told me to sign something saying that I had a citation and that it was mandatory that I complete it. If I didn’t there could be some serious consequences. I asked a few questions then I was on my way back home.

All I wanted to do was drive to my work to ask if I could work there again this summer. I wasn’t able to do it earlier since I had been out of the country for the last four months. I drove straight home and told my mother. We had figured out that the registration process changed last December and wasn’t aware of the change.

I was honestly so scared and there was a split second where I wanted to cry. WHY ME? I am the youngest driver in my family (mother, father and me) and “I” got pulled over. I am so thankful that he was patient with me and explained everything. I honestly had no clue what to do and was winging it the whole time. They teach you some etiquette things in school, but there was a huge gray area of information that I had no clue on.

Today was not a good day at all. It started out rotten and continued to get worse.

Just Friends


Can heterosexual men and women truly be friends with no hopes or expectations of anything more?

Throughout my middle school year, I thought that you could only have female friends and those who had male friends were usually male themselves. I was a naive little middle schooler, I didn’t realize that males and females could be friends without ever being in a relationship.

Sophomore year of high school years, I made some really good male friends. We will call them Cameron and Ethan (names changed for privacy); they were smart, funny and loads of fun to be around. We had several classes together and would talk during class to pass the time. Then, senior year came and things changed. We started planning days where we would get breakfast together at a local bagel shop, go to the beach, hang out at each other houses and spend endless nights texting each other. This is all things female friends do with each other, but no one raises any questions.

I lived in one small town, while Cameron lived in the next small town and Ethan lived in about fifteen minutes from Cameron. When we go out in public one of the boys would always be late, because we lived in different places. Therefore, I would be sitting alone with either Cameron or Ethan and the public would always think whoever I was sitting next to, I was dating. This was not the case; we were just a small group of friends hanging out together. I have gotten to the stage where I see them more as my brothers than potential boyfriend material.

I am at the end of my four months abroad and of course, I wanted to stay in touch with Cameron and Ethan while I was gone. The only way to communicate with them is Facebook and Skype. Cameron brought up that he has a lady friend and they could possibly start a very serious relationship come the fall semester. When I first heard this, I was jealous because there have been multiple times where I felt like we could be more.

Then, I started to remember something I once told my friend. “Would you rather be in a relationship with a guy for one year or be friends with them forever?” I revisited this question myself. I would like to have Cameron as a friend rather than a boyfriend. We have worked on our friendship for about five years and I wouldn’t want to jeopardize what we have currently. As I thought about us more, I realized that we probably wouldn’t work out anyways. He wants to become a doctor, while I want my life to be free and wild. I want to travel the world, while he wanted to be working a standard 9 to 5 job. Also, I could be moving within the next year. I haven’t seen them in over four months and I feel like my feelings towards both are more intense since I haven’t seen them in a really long time.

I never went into our friendship, wanting a relationship, even though I have thought of us being more I’ve never taken any action. I want to be able to tell them everything and want them to support me as well as I support them. I want to be able to attend their weddings while they attend mine.

I’ve been to their houses as they’ve been to mine. I’ve met their family and they’ve met mine. We are just like any friend group, but we are mixing genders. Of course, sometimes our friendship is frustrating at times because we are girls and guys. For example, I would love to go camping with them, but our parents might not feel comfortable us spending overnights together. Our parents trust us… no doubt, but society says that girls and guys together can lead to unwanted consequences. There are times where I don’t quite understand what they are saying, especially when it comes to gaming.

In conclusion, be friends with everyone, whether they are girls or guys. Don’t let society tell you who you can be friends with. If you have something in common and you enjoy being around them then, start to build a friendship that could last forever.

Honeycomb Pesto Alfredo Rigatoni


Honeycomb Pesto Alfredo Rigatoni




1 cup sour cream

1 cup of cottage cheese**

15 oz Alfredo sauce

1/4 teaspoon salt

1/4 teaspoon pepper

3 tablespoons prepared pesto sauce

1 pound cooked rigatoni pasta

2 tablespoons melted butter

1 1/2 cup parmesan cheese

chopped fresh basil and parsley for garnish

cooking spray

spring form pan

First, heat the oven to 400 degrees Fahrenheit and spray the springform pan with cooking spray. (I forgot to spray the pan, but fortunately, enough nothing suck too much.)

I filled a large pot full of water to boil so I could start to prepare the rigatoni. Once the water was boiling, I put in the rigatoni and cooked it for about 13 minutes. While I was waiting on the pasta, I mixed the sour cream, the cottage cheese, Alfredo sauce, salt, pepper, and pesto sauce in a large mixing bowl.


Cheesy Mixture


I drained the pasta and let it cool for about ten minutes. Then, I melted the butter in the microwave for about ten seconds. I moved the pasta into another large mixing bowl, poured the melted butter over it and added about two tablespoons of the parmesan cheese.


Drained Rigatoni



Rigatoni with the melted butter and parmesan cheese


After the pasta mixture was complete, I started putting them into the springform pan. Once all of the pasta was standing up straight, I put the creamy cheesy mixture over it and spreading it with a spatula. I topped all of that goodness with the leftover parmesan cheese.


Rigatoni standing tall



Ready for the oven


This dish went into the oven for 25-30 minutes. (Mine took 27 minutes, but it will vary depending on your oven.) I let it cool for about ten minutes and then removed it from the springform pan. Before I removed the pan, I took a butter knife and went around the edge to make sure the pasta wasn’t sticking to the sides. I topped my beautiful creation off with some fresh basil and parsley.


My creation just came out of the oven


Finished creation!! 🙂 


I enjoyed making this dish so much. If you guys make this dish please message me a picture of it on Instagram because I would love to see it. I am starting to cook a lot more so expect tons more creations and recipes.

*The recipe called for ricotta cheese, but I used cottage cheese since we didn’t have any ricotta cheese at this time.

**This recipes I found online and is not by any means my creation. The original recipe is found here.

It Ain’t Me by Kygo (feat. Selena Gomez)


It Ain’t Me by Kygo (feat. Selena Gomez) is such a powerful song. In one aspect this song about a friend that I lost and in another aspect, it is about my brother who is very troubled. Whenever I listen to this song, I get very emotional, because both of these scenarios are very difficult situations for me to think about.

I had a dream

We were sipping whiskey neat

Highest floor, the Bowery

And I was high enough

Somewhere along the lines

We stopped seeing eye to eye

You were staying out all night

And I had enough

My friend and I stopped seeing eye to eye at the end of senior year. I tried to keep our friendship together because I wanted her to still be my friend. She is amazing and she made me stronger, who could stand to lose someone like this? I was finished with her excuses, lies and the feeling that I wasn’t good enough to be her friend.

No, I don’t wanna know

Where you been or where you’re going

But I know I won’t be home

And you’ll be on your own

Who’s gonna walk you through the dark side of the morning?

Who’s gonna rock you when the sun won’t let you sleep?

Who’s waking up to drive you home when you’re drunk and all alone?

Who’s gonna walk you through the dark side of the morning?

It ain’t me

My younger brother has some mental problems and is very difficult to be around. Some days I feel like I just want to leave and forget about him completely. I really don’t care where he is headed, but all I know I won’t be there to deal will all the problems. He will have to figure out to take care of himself without the help from my mother and me.

I had a dream

We were back to seventeen

Summer nights and The Libertines

Never growing up

I’ll take with me

The polaroids and the memories

But you know I’m gonna leave

Behind the worst of us

After my friend and I split, I had nights where I would dream about what our friendship used to be. I will keep all the pictures of us and the memories that we have made together, but I will leave all the worst of us behind. I will let those gather dust and be forgotten forever.

It Ain’t Me (Audio)


It Ain’t Me Music Video

Quotes to Live By 6.4.17

I apologize for the late post. I am still adjusting to my home time so I forgot that Sunday was today.


“Lost time is never found again.” Benjamin Franklin

Instead of curing the darkness, be the one to light a candle. 

“Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass… it’s about learning to dance in the rain!”

“The one who is meant for you encourages you to be your best, but still loves and accepts you at your worst.”

“Adventure is calling. I must go.”

“Love is the master key that opens the fates of happiness.” – Oliver Wendell Holmes

May you recognize the passion and the possibility in your day today and have the courage to follow it.

“Rare as is true love, true friendship is rarer.” – Jean de La Fontaine

“There is nothing on this earth more to be prized than true friendship.” – Thomas Aquinas